Each and every day my life is getting spoiled ... It's never going to improve... When I start cleaning up 1 side then the other side becomes dirty... So I am tired of this life.. God pls take me from this dirty world.... If I stay here for more I will be the dirtiest and unclean person.. Pls take me from here... I quit my life wen I was 13 years old, then I quit when I was 15, 21 & 23..... I'm so much tired , I am weak ... So I again thank for all the gifts you have given.. I don't want to make any more mistakes.. Again I say I quit because I really mean it.. It's never going to be right. I feel like I'm getting physically and mentally impaired.. What I see is a blank space... Emptiness ! No memories to cherish.. Even if I live god pls never make me prosperous.. My family tree and my future generations must be stopped through me...take me god ... I quit.
Please make me feel pride of myself at least to me. I can't take this bullshit life any more. I choose to be alone. And I know I'm right and why is it so. Take me far. My life is a big zero.. I have no gains if any it's only materialistic. I never trust anybody. That's my policy.. Never ever will I trust anybody .. Only god!! What ever the situation is I will not trust any body.. Because it's hard and I won't let anybody touch my heart! I will never ever let it happen!! Even if I quit as a looser or what ever... God still I beg you to take me from these sinners because if i live here I will be the biggest sinner between them... I also don't give a damn of what they think. So I'm happy alone in some place. God please take me to that place where I'm happy. Nothing to worry about.. To feel easy..
I am very thankful to you god who did this much for mePlease make me feel pride of myself at least to me. I can't take this bullshit life any more. I choose to be alone. And I know I'm right and why is it so. Take me far. My life is a big zero.. I have no gains if any it's only materialistic. I never trust anybody. That's my policy.. Never ever will I trust anybody .. Only god!! What ever the situation is I will not trust any body.. Because it's hard and I won't let anybody touch my heart! I will never ever let it happen!! Even if I quit as a looser or what ever... God still I beg you to take me from these sinners because if i live here I will be the biggest sinner between them... I also don't give a damn of what they think. So I'm happy alone in some place. God please take me to that place where I'm happy. Nothing to worry about.. To feel easy..
But still I'm loosing hope..it's never gonna be right. This dirty world says change is the law of life and I will never follow this dirty rules... So I think the best way is to keep a big distance from this world. If u have created me then it's very easy for you... I don't know why I believe in past traditions.. I can never accept the future laws.. I have lost control of my life...
My life is great as I can see from each and every angle. It's so big and vast . Like a big ship and a big crew. The only thing is day by day the ship is sinking. It can never be saved by a manual effort. Some magic/miracle has to happen. I plead you god to throw that magic on my life and set me free.. Please take me so that I can be happy for ever.
I'm tied of this drama of life. Life is good to those people who pretend to be nice in this world.. Why should i act in such a way?? Am I crazy? Fuck off to those winners!!! I don't give a damn!! I am what i am.. It's not that I choose to be but that is HOW I AM... This is the way I am from the day of my birth..
God you said to me that you would come to me and give me relief... That's only what i want to hear.. The rest all is like stones or pieces of rock to me.. It has no virtue and no value in my life.... I'm already dead in this world, I have my own world here when I write something to you... I love you god. I pray to you to bless me with my last wish and I'm done.
... Please hear my prayer lord...
